I HAVE HAD IT WITH THESE MOTHERFUCKING ANTS, IN MY MOTHERFUCKING ROOM!

Seriously, I never eat in here and they show up everyone. The desk was irritating. The shower was gross. But MY BED? SERIOUSLY? WTF! That shit is not okay.

Damn you, riverside, damn you.

In other news, new LJ theme are rockin.

PS, I have learned that "SR" is the abbreviation for the Socialist Revolutionary party in pre-communist russia. I find this to be a) entertaining and b) somewhat appropriate.

today I got very sunburnt.

my theory is that sunburn is payback for white people being awful colonialist/oppressive/xenophobic bitches. i can deal. my people deserve much worse.

anyway, i got sunburnt getting people to sign a pettion to get rodney reed a new trial, a likely innocent man on texas death row. to read more about his case go to www.freerodneyreed.org and sign the online petition.

afterwards, i went to an awesome italian restaurant and had wonderful eggs benedict. it warmed my soul.

now i am memorizing speeches. i have a tournament next weekend. which is pretty effing crazy.

in other news, stargate atlantis is awesome. partly because meredith is rodney's real name and therefore we have the same real name. so SWEET.

remember that time that I had over 250 pages of reading to do over the next week, but I didn't care because it was for (1) revolutionary russia and (2) the rhetoric of popular music? yeah, i do.

(1) And...it was the best joke EVER.

(2) I often don't remember your name. It might be embarrassing if you knew that.

(3) one day, I woke up in a room full of baggage that was countless stories high and when I tried to get out I got stuck in an elevator.

(4) Sometimes, I wish I didn't talk, but, I try not to think about it and then hope for the best.

(5) sometimes I forget about the link between socialism and foriegn policy because basic IR theory/extempy moderate left politics obscure my thought. Part of me is still trying to hold on to my more mainstream political views, but its an increasingly smaller part of me. I am this close to just giving in completely. I will write about this later, methinks.

(6) I need to get involved in activist organizations. It's sad that I did more that in high school than I do in college, given the increased opportunity. Check one on list of things that needs to change.

(7) i stopped trying. really, it was so not worth it.

(8) There was something about that conversation that made me really dislike you. Something hiding in your tone and half formed arguments.

(9) eyes on the prize.

(10) "you are a relentless communist and still believe in Santa Claus." What a beautiful insult.

(11) What did I do? Did I just never realize that I got this type of attention before? And now, you're all looking at me like...that and things.

(12) Apples to apples is such a phenomenal game. I want to create a bid system for it or something.

(13) NEW PHONE! It has bluetooth and i can put fun midi files on it for all the people in my address book. This makes me less productive, which is not so good.

(14) Our 5+ hour conversation has convinced me of so many things. Mostly how glad I am that you (and you) exist.

(1) Sometimes, I reach this point where do not want to put effort into conversation or any other attempt to mitigate my social awkwardness.

(2) Other times, I just want to yell at the top of my lungs.

(3) I think I might want to teach high school?

(4) I miss my nicki. WHY ARE YOU FAR AWAY? afjgrdihjlkajdshtr!

(5) I lack any normal sense of the passage of time.

(6) Sometimes, I really need to be by myself.

(7) Really? I mean, really?

(8) Extemp camp --> overloading/addiction on/to political discussion.

(1) I drink a lot of coffee, but still, when I drink a lot of it on an empty stomach, it enduces slight hysteria.

(2) For some as of yet unknown reason, my parents showed me some of my baby pictures in which I was curled up and sleeping in an airplane seat. I rather wish I could still do that.

(3) Sometimes, I really love my subconscious mind.

(4) my country has a learning diability http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/5095506.stm

(5) I got regina spektors new album and it is GREAT.

(6) Why is utnif extemp so awesome? I have no clue, but utnif extemp 05 children seriously tore up NFLs and it makes me so very happy. And excited for this year's lab, of course. coaching > competing.

(7) "SO BIG AND BIG, HUGE AND BIG" -- creepy, creepy ad on sci fi. Of course, that's what you get for spending a friday night watching stargate and reading about china, apparently, so I deserve to have the creepy commercial song that is clearly phallic stuck in my head. Yes, thank you very much.

(8) Denny crane. *interest random metaphysical angst about empathy with denny*

(9) I wrote a song this morning. I should have been packing or reading but I just sat down and wrote a song. It was...interesting.

(10) I am so going to forget something tomorrow, aren't I?

(1) i can't listen to my normal sad music. it makes me cry and feel awful.

(2) i award you no points, may god have mercy on your soul!

(3) Oh liz, this list is saving my life. Even if it gets a bit, you know, evil. But really, that's the best part.

(4) "but it's dark" is my parents excuse for not liking many movies/tv shows etc. This is why my mother doesn't like BSG, which is quite sad, because its awesome and I have the DVDs! Maybe that's why my parents don't "believe in" global warming, it's "too dark" for them.

(5) i am going to need moral support here. Please?

(6) i may or may not sleep well sometime in the near future. I can handle lame sleep if it continues to involve awesome dreams, otherwise, I may go a little crazy.

(7) ah, i remember this feeling. it will be better after i stare at my desktop a little more o_o

(8) can't i just run away? I am so much better at that and by run away I mean run back here, to home.

(9) So I watched steath with my dad. Oh it was so entertainingly bad. What's sad, is that I think I *enjoyed* it more than I enjoyed King Kong, which must make me deranged. Or maybe King Kong was too dark for me, but that's unlikely.

(10) Cat Stevens and Garth Brooks are also greatly improving my quality of life. *sings*

(1) Cameron broke at NFLs! I am so happy and proud *gushes*

(2) top gun was so much greater than i remembered it. so much, I was completely blindsided by its hilarity.

(3) I forgot how much I love BLTs. Crunchy sandwhich!

(4) Also, my grandpa sent me peanut butter fudge with perfect timing so that it can combat my random bouts of angst.

(5) Yeah, so I know I said I'd root for the mavs, but that was just the lie of the century. So glad the heat won. Kazaaaam.

(6) I hate my back and it returns the favor.

(1) So, I've always thought that ipods represented some of the worst parts of capitalism, setting aside the fact that they are an icon of materialism which i can completely deal with, but so many people complain about how they break and are lame. But now I have a creative color screen mp3 player doodad that is green and pretty and is hopefully superior to the ipod, but i'm excited because its ity and still has 30 GB of space.

(2) mmmmmmfffff.

(3) no, not really.

(4) Thoughts on al gore's movie.
It was the perfect example of motivated sequence. At least that's what the comm nerd in me keep saying
There was antartica and I immediately thought of stargate, which is a little pathetic of me.
The science is very well explained and visualized. I'm a sucker for graphs. Al gore makes me laugh. He's just so...hilariously him and uncharismatic.
Worth seeing Go see it and be motivated and educated about the cliamte and persuasive technique.
Unfortunately he had to mention the 2000 election. I mean, reaaaally? You have to get over that or at least pretend to so you retain credibility.

(5) I have new glasses! And new hair! I feel all shiny and new or something.

(6) I think I am a cat person, with all the attendant stereotypes.

(7) I love home. I've missed it here so much.

(8) I ate a whole pizza at CPK. I was hungry and now I don't want to move.

(9) So I solved today's LA times crossword in about 15 minutes. I owned it and I felt very accomplished because usually I fail at crossword puzzles. It must have been all the caffiene and the lack of sleep.

(10) I really want to watch top gun.

(1) ( stargate babble )

(2) From NC congressional hopeful Vernon Robinson's radio ad, regarding his democratic opponent: "If Miller had his way, America would be nothing but one big fiesta for illegal aliens and homosexuals." I swear if this man gets elected...I mean, for crying out loud, even my MOTHER thinks this is over the top and rush limbaugh is the woman's idol.

(3) While responding to an extempers speech in a dream i started to sing that stupid sing complicated song. Apparently, I dream in musicals about extemp.

(3b) also, i dreamed david hewlett was playing some government official who had some scary diease and they had to dismember him and filter all out all his blood to try to cure him but it wasn't working. My subconscious mind had lots of very gory and graphic images to supply, it seems. Srsly, it was crazy and all these people got infected and starting bleeding all over. *shudder* Perhaps my brain is trying to tell me to watch less science fiction.

(4) In an unexpected turn of events, I (most likely) am going to washington dc. this is exciting!

(1) The US soccer team sucks and it is so very awesome. Partly, because we were trounced by czechs but mostly because it is just so appropriate that we are bad at the world's sport, since, ya know, we don't play well with others.

(2) The only way I can manage at the dentist without flipping out due to the onslaught of unpleasant sensory stimuli is to attempt a crude form of meditation. The result was something like this:
Looking out the window. Sky is blue peaceful blue. blue. blue.
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT NOISE?
blue blue blue skies smiling at me. pretty blue sky.
OMG! Do you expect me NOT TO NOTICE when you DRAG SHARP POINTY METAL THINGS across my gums?
tree pretty tree. windy tree. tree tree tree.
AGAIN? with the pointy object and the AWFUL noise? AHHHH!
etc.
Anyway, the dentist told me that my teeth are perfect and he wished everyone did what I did with my teeth. Which apparently means that we should all abandon flossing and chew lots and lots of trident white. Well, at least that's over with.

(3) I drank a yoohoo today. It was pretty sweet.

(1) joe flanigan was on murphy brown and dawson's creek? weird i say. Also, my mcshep and sga obbession refuses to end.

(2) I think I may have latent coordination which I only discover in activities that involve ping pong balls, ie ping pong and beer pong.

(3) Swimming in random clothes is fun.

(4) I have to go to the dentist tomorrow. yuch.

(5) It is SO dry here. Mleeeh, it makes me miss austin. And the chapstick i just used is old and mango flavored. Not that I dislike mango, but i'm not particularly fond of old mango.

(6) there is a fork on my desk for no good reason.

(7) I wanna make new LJ icons. I have plans.

(1) i blame debate for my over use of the word this.

(2) stirfry update: still uneaten in the fridge. should throw it out.

(3) my skin/my person feels all dry and dusty.

(4) CLOTHES. OMFG, I love sales. Granted the rich people at fashion square are terrifying.

(5) A clerk at express told me that I look like kate hudson. Uhrrm, I wish.

(6) I need to start paying closer attention to the news again.

(7) tinkering with LJ sucks up lots of time...but I like my page looking all coffee like.

(8) The breakup is so cute. Vince Vaugh makes me...giggle.

(9) I am too tired to have thoughts.

Only a few things, one being that I was delighted when I realized that jesus, john stewart, kant were listed consequetively on my LJ interests list. The other that I adore angels and demons (which I began reading on 6-6-06, btw) and that I LOATHE junk science.

Mostly the junk science that leads me to have the inevitable global warming is a myth invented by the government to make money argument with my father. REALLY? It amuses me that you are arrogant enough to assume that virtually every accredited scienctist is a whackjob and that human beings could not possbily affect the earth in anyway. But when you argue with the irrational, they could lose the debate 1,000 times over and never realize it. I should know enough to avoid these dicussions. I think I still cling to the hope that as my level of knowledge and education increases I might actually be able to "convert", but alas, that is mere illusion.

I need aim to not constantly have ads for feminine products that TALK to me.

Uhrm, I am going to read my book now.

(1) I am going to eat a GIANT piece of cake and it is going to be so amazing that I am going to forget how much this game blew.

(2) At least Steve will always be more attractive than Dirk. He can always hold that over him when they have dinner together.

(3) I really wish that Dirk didn't sent marv albert into orgasmic fits. It's exceptionally bothersome.

(4) Indeed, liz, your link list will be of service as I attempt to cope.

(5) Yeah yeah, we still had a good season. I'll live, but only because I have diet coke and cake.

(6) And now...I will turn around and root for the mavs in the final. After I am done with my bitter phase that is...

(1) I need to renew my library book.

(2) Yesterday was a good mail day for me. I got a coupon for a free godvia chocolixer drink, my package of "things your conservative parents don't want you to buy" from Amazon.com (the communist manifesto, tarot cards, brokeback mountain, and a vegetarian cookbook), and a budapest postcard from nicki.

(3) I have no reservations with platonic relationships. I'll write you soon.

(4) Come to think of it, I have quite the collection of postcards from nicki's summer travels.

(5) I turn into a completely different person when I am preoccupied by lots of things. I can't handle having someone over, cooking, and taking a phone call from you. But I wanted to take the call but I was overtaken by a need to do things.

(6) And I like schedules because I want so many things in my life that I need to balance them so I don't give less time to someone who deserves it and I can be authortarian about them. If things don't happen when I expect its like they lose priority. Given the free time that I have and my general procrastinatory nature, this is strange behavior.

(7) Coffee and shopping with kendra today. I love clothes...its so capitalist of me.

(8) Many times actually. It's a very merry thing to do.

(9) I should stop being so naive. It really doesn't suit me.

(10) There is, apparently, a new trend to use the death penalty for sex offenders. Really? Must we be more barbabic and inhumane?

(11) I always cook too much food, but usually in an awkward amount. Like, I just cooked enough stir fry for 2 and a half people and the half person meal will just sit in my refrigerator, awkwardly while I don't eat it because its not enough for a meal and stir fry is not snack food.

(12) I need basketball to be on 3...2...now. Texas women's softball is cool, but not really.

(1) so, pot-smoking, actually reduces your risk for cancer.

(2) I cannot wait to buy regina spektor's new album. I found some demos of the songs and it sounds like it's going to be wonderful.

(3) I don't write poems anymore and its a bit strange. I miss the outlet but my creativity seems to be lacking.

(4) As partially evidenced by the amount of orange and purple I wear (including my purple toes with the number 13 on them) and my profuse cursing, I am far too emotionally invested in the suns-mavs series.

(5) I want to make a spiffy lj layout again. I miss having them.

(6) I wish my grandmother was less deaf. Not being able to hear is sad and scary.

(7) having headaches and near fainting spells in the morning really puts a damper on my attempts to be productive in the morning, IE read and play DDR. It also tends to make me depressed and moody.

(8) the text size of my journal title is so obnioxously huge that my dad read it from outside my door. I think it amused him.

(8) i miss life in the i have things to do that give me purpose and people outside my family that i see daily way.

(9) diet cherry coke is my favorite type of coke.

(10) sometimes you need to bawl your eyes out to achieve a feeling of peace and realize how much you need/love someone.

sometimes days subtly send us messages.

sometimes, however, they beat us over the head with their themes and morals.

todays theme: mortality

and the corresponding message: live your life well and love it.

Trite, but that is what today wanted to shout at me so I figured I should write it down.

I am reading a book about probability. For those of you who know how I feel about math, this should surprise you. Its interesting though. That and the cover makes me think of poker and its full of fun stories about famous people.

I feel very listless and displaced, and while I have many reasons to (i suppose) it is...

bizarre. Not as bizzare as the song my computer is randomly playing and just hiccuped on 4 times and how appropriate it is. I adore it when life does things like that to me. It feels so magical : D

I think I may return, considering that this is likely more productive than many of the other things I do. Additionally, I spent a year and college during which many things happened that part of me wishes I had tracked my reactions to.

Presently, summer has lead me to become hooked on the TV shows my parents have the DVD boxed sets for, IE desperate housewives and boston legal, which aside from rekindling my affection for james spader, have made me feel slightly dirty in that tv can waste time sort of way.

In other news, I still play ddr incessently as it is it one of the few things that can actually force me to move.

I guess I should redesign layout if I am going to house my randomness here again.

And finally, GO SUNS. They nearly killed me in the process of winning but I can forgive them for that. I want them to win this series so badly that it hurts.